tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30554026463248309202011-04-21T17:35:49.029-05:00MMThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04904923163925436115noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3055402646324830920.post-48001860087968221032008-04-29T09:53:00.002-05:002008-04-29T10:10:26.749-05:00<span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:180%;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><br />"So here I am<br />doing everything I can<br />holding on to what I am<br />pretending I'm a superman"<br /><br />That's a happy song! With a not so happy lyrics... kinda weird, huh?<br /><br />I feel like that lyrics sometimes... but, not today...<br /><br />Today i feel wonderful.... i feel great...<br /><br />We got back together... she didn't expect it, i didn't expect it... that was great!!!!<br /><br />It's kinda weird how all the wonderful stuff happens... one day, i feel like shit... and a few days later, i feel like i never felt.... like new!<br /><br />I don't know what else to say.... but, i have to thank all the people that supported me in those hard times... even if we didn't talk about it... just for being there with me, i feel thankful...<br /><br />I'll continue to write stuff in here... so come check it out sometime...<br /><br />See ya!<br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3055402646324830920-4800186008796822103?l=rckrmmt.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>MMThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04904923163925436115noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3055402646324830920.post-55162453860211821082008-04-27T15:42:00.002-05:002008-04-27T16:05:54.858-05:00<span style="font-family: verdana;">I suddenly start to feel weird, nothing is as it was a few years ago. Sometimes it's like... mmm... feeling like everything is great, and sometimes is the opposite...<br /><br />I'm stuck between my feelings and my future, and i hate that they are like a couple of kids fighting because the want their favorite toy. That toy is me, i feel like that... like a simple puppet being handled by nobody.<br /><br />I'ts hard to decide which path do i want to go... the one where i didin't think of consequences, and like in a kiss's song i was listening yesterday: "want to rock n' roll al nite, and party everyday".... or get going to my, let's say, pre-destined path... where i should be starting to think about my life, my future, and all that crap that a 5-year-old would say: "that's boring, that's grownup stuff!!!"<br /><br />The saddest thing is that i feel like a boy, but stuck in a old man's suit. I want to make people see how easy life is... but, it's easier to make them see that, that seeing it by myself...<br /><br />I don't have anyone that listens to what i have to say... or i always think that, because of my past... my past made my mind is shut and my heart get closed... and maybe that's why i can't talk to anyone about my true feelings... it's like every desition i make, hurts somebody...<br /><br />I'm confused at this time, i love her.... i really do... but my heart shuts... i know she loves me (or at least, she used to) but, i don't feel her... i don't fucking know why!!!!<br /><br />My life is turning into crap, if i'm with her, i feel suffocated... if i'm alone, i feel lonely... yes, it's not the same...<br /><br />I enjoy talking to a girl, as long as i don't have a commitment with her... i saw her yesterday, i tried to talk to her, my heart was screaming real hard... but, all my mind did was... looking to the other side.<br /><br />Fuck! how i hate this! i really do!<br /><br />If you read this... i know someone it's translating to you, but i want you to know... i saw your sad poem... it struck me like a lightening... but, i'm not ready yet... all i could say to you... was that words i whispered to your ear, while a tear was coming from my eyes.... i'm sorry, i know how i'm making you feel... but, i hope that, someday i can love you, as you loved me...<br /><br />Sorry... i really am!<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3055402646324830920-5516245386021182108?l=rckrmmt.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>MMThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04904923163925436115noreply@blogger.com5